RED
SNOW
An Entertainment
‘Toute pensée émet un coup
de dés’
Stéphane Mallarmé,
Un coup de dés
jamais n’abolira l’hasard
‘O paradis cent fois retrouvé reperdu
Tes yeux sont mon Pérou ma Golconde mes Indes.’
Louis Aragon,
Les yeux d’Elsa
~ I
~
‘Hold on! Hold him!’
‘It’s
hair! I can’t,’ she says.
‘Hold his hair. No, he’s gone,’ I say.
‘We pitched too near the edge. It was so beautiful,’
she says.
‘There he sails – oh no, like a bale of something.
And – red snow!’ I say.
Elsa says, ‘Must be something sharp. Oh dear, how terrible.’
‘You let him go. Idiot. He
died a hero’s death.’
She says, ‘He was asleep. He dreamt. Perhaps of me. He wriggled.’
‘A hero’s death,’ I say. ‘And who’s to know. That
accolade the last, the least, thing we can do.’
She complains, ‘This stupid search. All the flowers are
shut and under snow.’
‘Just chance. Another year will come.’
She says, ‘That’s excitement for today, enough! At
least there aren’t people to be told.’
A flurry in the night.
‘You could have grabbed him,’ I say.
‘By his hair? It’s mad. Now, don’t start
on me. He chose the spot, he warmed his way right down
– the void, the void!’
‘Don’t get upset. You rock the tent.’
‘Not upset – doing my analysis,
is all. Coming to terms.’
This
sliding in the chill, the cold – enough!
Another scheme:
I say, ‘Paradise: food and flora.’ What do you
think?’
She says, ‘Nice for the cover. As for the book
itself – you’ve got it wrong. Paradise is when you’re dead. You must mean Eden
– that’s where the Fall begins.’
‘There must be stuff on both. They’re basic gardens.
The pity is – it’s Africa, that’s where it starts. Besides, between the fall
and death, there’s just white time, just waiting for the bus. Our big idea is –
immortality. Not eternity – that’s over in a flash. But going on, day after
day, your legs in causal chains, your head is twisting side to side and getting
wiser by the hour. What we must ask is – what animals, what flowers and such
you need, to live the good, the everlasting life? That’s what the texts are all
about, it’s where the heroes come to rest when all the slaying’s done.’
Elsa says, ‘You’re wrong. But sure – the idea’s a
seller, it’s commercial.’
‘Not just the bible stuff – all kinds of other
tales, like Gilgamesh – there’s deer and pomegranates, juice of peach, manna
and mushrooms. And some feisty people too.’
‘It’s worth another expedition. Adventures – they’ll
arrive for sure,’ she says.
‘This year the world won’t end, the holes are
plugged in earth and sky,’ I say, ‘so we’ll go back, and on our watch again –
casting runes, the tarot, chair arrangement, cheering up the old. Mysteries.’
She says, ‘You’ve got the book already written.
What’s the point of more?’
I show her. The book, as it is. It’s a block of
cardboard, there’s no text, just montage of an eye, a feather, mountain cave, a
shoulderblade with bullet hole.
I say, ‘The colour’s sharp.’
Grey, yellow, indigo, a
splash – vermilion in a white expanse. Could be an error. All to play for.
Here’s
the project, then – and no more Arctic, frozen flowers, it’s off to Africa, and
I say, ‘We must live as heroes. Then be forgotten.’
‘That’s not why heroes do it.’
I insist: ‘An epic. For the
people. And the kids.’
She’s back on her track again, her lover sliding
down the slope, nearly now forgotten. She says, ‘The kids? Little screwed-up
guys. Too plugged-in, clued-up and clueless.’
‘You may be right. But that is everything there is.’
The pole is moving, further east and south. So we
follow, hoping on the way we’ll eat and find a stash of something good. Fatuous, the complaining of the rigours, and the luxury.
I say, ‘We’ve learned to look on, coldly. Then –
out, into the cold.’
‘Is that heroism,’ she asks, uninterested in an
answer. ‘Guess it is.’
We inherit everything. Now, I’ve inherited Elsa. Ah,
those ideas, the gardens, beautiful, like in the poem. Stupid! Much better than in the poem, any poem. And Elsa, my grubby
muse, queen heavy with her tragedy – or, in this case, someone else’s.
I say, ‘Heroes need a big cast – or a big mountain.
Well, I’ve tired of mountains. There, you don’t feel free, you feel cold and
breathless. Bring on the elevators. As for the extras, cast of thousands – are
they willing to be turned to monkeys or to stone, trampled or boiled? Where
shall we find them?’
I already have the answer.
Down at the pier our ship is ready – striding off,
then, back with the loot. Sailors – once shoremen all, their houses burned, and some throats cut – a host of ghosts a-twittering
before the prow, the sea is full of them, the lifeless and the dispossessed.
‘Home are the pirates, home from the sea’ – but they aren’t, they never are.
What a fate, what a tempting, this ‘going on board’ – and boards these are, I
stamp on them. Theatre or coffin. Urchins
grown specially and sent aloft. Those sea eagles make fine weapons, if
you train them right.
There’s Elsa, at the prow, she points, as if she
leads the ship, the breasts, the eyes, some randy sailors paint her after every
trip.
‘We’ll find some guys to sort things out,’ she says.
‘Ours is no rubber raft that circles with no destination.’
‘It’s Nick, the manager,’ I think. ‘When he comes,
she’ll feel assured. It seems to her it’s all a nonsense,
floating from there to here.’
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